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Sadie’s Making Me Nervous

Posted in Sadie Mae Glutz, Update with tags , , , , , , , , , , on January 10, 2015 by Kaden Brown


With two previously published books, both in the paranormal or ‘urban fiction’ genre, you may expect me to have become accustomed to feeling nervous or anxious prior to launch.

Oddly, I previously never gave such nervousness much thought. Maybe with those books – mere candyfloss compared to Sadie’s meaty and gut-wrenching story – which were longer and more “story-ish” there was not much of me invested in them. So maybe, I never even felt nervous in the run-up to publication…

With “Wear A Flower In You Hair – A dialogue with Sadie Mae Glutz” there is a lot of “me” in the book. Surprisingly it does not really tell a story that will sweep the reader off their feet. It is not a flowing romp through the joys and wonders of immortality, or a hazy battle set-upon the mangled crest of some hill, or a happy and tearful exploration of love, dance and loss.

This is Sadie’s story. It is an interview and as such Sadie guides where it takes us and the interviewer. She doesn’t have a happy story to tell. It doesn’t have a happy ending, nor does the story even make the reader or on-looker envious and wanting more.

But in the horror of her story, amongst the philosophical gems Sadie espouses, in the matter-of-fact analysis of all things related to life and death, in there somewhere is me. “Wear A Flower In You Hair – A dialogue with Sadie Mae Glutz” is a story of personal calamity and twisted perversion that maybe reflects how I feel. How angry I am that I lost people, angry that my universe is not what it should be. Daring to hope that maybe there is a universe in which the feelings and dreams I have can be real.

Not that slaughtering dozens of folk is my thing. Nor even is the belief that happiness derives from pain. No, my pain – and perhaps humanity’s pain or unhappiness – is reflected in the warped excesses of Sadie’s intelligence, that her searching for happiness derived instead a negative image of what we all (or usually all of us) desire from the society in which we live.

Whilst normal people want peace, love and happiness and will do anything to make those things real, Sadie on the other hand, is so damaged by life that her core values are destroyed. Instead of peace, love and happiness she wants the opposite. To her, society is corrupt and built upon lies which destroy people. To defend her thesis as such she has built a sumptuous belief system that offers an alternative hypothesis on how to create peace, love and happiness.

I suppose that in searching for my own solutions to the problems of achieving peace, love and happiness there is a little bit of my own beliefs in what Sadie is trying to do. I feel for her. I can see why she did what she did. I can understand her frame of reference, why she feels that the universe has slipped. I know those feelings that broke her. The loss of faith in parents and the world is enough to destroy any kid’s mental health.

So with so much of me, of my experiences tied-into this book, of my pain, and my mental wanderings, Sadie reflects me to a certain extent. The only difference being, I would be mortified to kill anything knowingly.

So there-in lies my odd feelings of anxiety over Sadie’s story, an interview that overtly seeks to find out her philosophical raison d’être for mass murder. Her interview with Deborah tells her story as a horror. Yet it is the hidden evolution of her thinking, the reasons for her madness that are me. And having that made public – no matter how allegorical – is a nervous affair. Maybe people won’t realise?

Don’t forget “Wear A Flower In Your Hair – A dialogue with Sadie Mae Glutz” is now available for pre-order from Amazon Kindle (USD$0.81, AUD$0.99, GBP£1.02). Note that these prices can change without notice. The book is released on January 17, 2015.


Guns/assault weapons: how to make me sick

Posted in Uncategorized, Update with tags , , , , , on January 30, 2013 by Kaden Brown

Recently, as part of writing a screenplay about gun violence (called “Shady Oaks” at the moment; as well as being about pharmaceutical drug use, teenage delinquency, domestic violence and racism) I have had to do research on the internet into guns, more specifically, into assault weapons in the US.

A Beretta PX4 Storm

A Beretta PX4 Storm

I have never fired a gun, and a shiver of fear actually passes through me when I even see one. They do chill me to the bone. After-all, guns are made to kill things, animals and humans.

What is absolutely shocking is to find that there are publicly available in many US states, weapons that in my opinion, should not even by manufactured. We’re talking about automatic weapons (machine guns?) that have standardized STANAG ‘fittings’ (STANAG, meaning “Standardization Agreement”, which was established to enable the easy adaptability of ammunition and equipment between armed forces) allowing for clip, box, and casket magazines. Invariably demand seems to encourage the usage of High Capacity Magazines which can hold up to (or more than) 100 bullets. Heck, either the user is either grossly incompetent at shooting, or they’re in some sort of army/combat situation.

A Robinson XCR-L Mini. Can be fitted with STANG magazine holding 100 rounds.(!) The advertizer has even styled the word "NEW!" in blood (WTF)

A Robinson XCR-L Mini. Can be fitted with STANAG magazine holding 100 rounds.(!) The advertizer has even styled the word “NEW!” in blood (WTF)

That being the case then surely such things should NOT be available to the general public to buy and potentially use against any person. I know the gun lobby argument make the owning of guns sound like a person has the “right” to such ownership, but surely, surely, these things have one purpose and only one purpose – to kill people. I won’t go into the issues related to guns (that would require me revisiting infantile and inane philosophy lessons from my university days, and I so cannot be bothered doing that) and refuse to countenance even the slim possibility that maybe gun ownership could be a good thing.

Point blank – the owning, possessing or trade of any sort of gun makes that person complicit in the murders of human beings. I do not give a damn about claimed rights to protect oneself and family. Bollocks. If I upset people, I really do not care.

Normally I try to steer clear of poilitics, American politics in particular. But on this I think even President Obama is soft on the issue: The right to own guns should be overturned. On top of that the gun manufacturers should be arrested for crimes against humanity, or at-least there should be a group action civil case brought against the various manufacturers. They have blood on their hands.

And I feel sick from seeing so many guns.

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